Moody Day

一起身，我整个人都呆住了。

那个梦很真，吓得我泪都快流下来了。

这会真的发生在我身上吗？

我很怕如果发生了，我会选择离开。

你不是说过，如果吵架了，你会用道理公正去判断谁对谁错吗？

为什么全都是我的错啦？

我很介意，你说我的不体谅。

我没想过，原来在你眼里的我，是这个样。

我的错吗？可是我真的没有那样，怎么认错？？

难道你平时看不到我对他们的好？

我的感觉告诉我，你把错都赖在我身上，

伤透了我的心。='(((

叹

我想呐喊啊！！！

到底看不看到我的委屈？？

我也试着努力啦，我也包容很多事情，甚至想办法讨开心。

我哪里错啦？？？？

为什么一定要有这样的结果？

一方开心，一方就伤心，所以宁愿伤心的人是我？

我没有错！我有努力要自己一次又一次的接受，给自己希望一切都是好的。

可是一次又一次的得到这样的结果，我也容忍了，我一句都没计较过。

这样的我不体谅吗？

难道坦白说出来，是在诉苦还是埋怨，你不知道吗？

我说出来要把问题解决，可是当成了不体谅，任性，不孝对吧？

那我自己来。

Unstable ♥

It been 10 years..

I had an unstable ♥..

It's quite suffer me sometimes..

But I wouldn't want to give up my ♥..

Sometimes it brings me to fear, darkness..

It makes me sleep, can't move, can't speak and even can't see..

I heard the voice of you without seeing you,

I heard my breath but it seems isn't real..

My mind is clear, focus..

I heard everyone around me, but..

All I can do that time, is just tears drop from my eyes..

I wish to reply every single people that talk to me that time,

but I can't..

Well, it's really scared me that time..

I keep talk to my mind, to my ♥,

Wake Up.. Don't fall asleep..

Will it be one day, that my ♥ give up me someday?

No ones knows about this..

Just hope that I will done all the things I wish to do before it give me up..='))

Hate

不尊敬我的人，就算你是大我几十倍的人我都觉得不需要尊敬你！

整天在那边搞风搞雨，吵个不停！

你以为你谁啊？？？

要全部人让你？听你？我呸！

你这个心机重的人！

每次看到你，心里都有种愤怒想骂你！

你再这样下去，吃亏的是你自己好不好！

过分！我对你的印象一开始就非常非常不好！！！

神经有问题的人！别人家都不会那样，你就偏偏做些让我对你更有仇恨！

我真的很恨你！！

别想我会原谅你，也别想我会配合你！

我的所有都不属于你！包括我的性格！也不需要为了你而傻傻让自己受伤！

大不了我当没认识过你！！

STUPID! Don't think that you can make me upset cause I'm not gonna upset for a person like you!!!

Problems..~.~

The problem is still exist..

A problem that I dislike very much,

and it often appear right in front my eyes..

Thought can be a happy day, but sometimes happiness not easy to be gain..

Need to worry this and that, especially things that I won't like to see, hear..

My eyes full of fear when I see it, my heart feel sadness when I listen every single sentence..

I don't care whether I will get use to it or what...

There is no such thing I will change myself for it...

This is the thing I dislike the most, and it will never change my perception..

To me, this is a serious problem in life..

Life is full of colour if you know how to appreciate, how to let go, how to move on..

There is no such thing solve it with the wrong way..

Once you gone the wrong way, few times you will realize this is wrong and stop it..

But not to continue using the pathetic way to hurt everyone, include yourself...

We should realize what we do can not only make ourselves happy,

but also people surrounding us..

The only way I will choose to avoid,

is less go, to avoid by involve in..

I like my mum's advice, I feel comfort when I hear she said to me,

"放下，有些事情不能勉强，随缘就好。今天他对你不好，不要记仇，我们要做大方的人。"

Well, I will always remember this.. ^^

But if too over, I won't forgive..

My attitude is depends on how you treat me...=))

Change

I still believe that people changed after they leave and to a new environment..

The way they speak, act..

Just not the same like last time anymore..

It may because of stress, or may also because of the feeling is not strong anymore..

Well, I trying not to think the negative,

but everything is starting to be different..

要互相包容，彼此才会过得比较好。。

You don't like some of their attitude, in the same way,

people doesn't like the all of you too..

But if they accept, when you did it, they will only say to you,

but not wanted you to totally change for them..

Even some of them, will accept it queitly without letting them know to make both of them more happier, lesser argument...

Remind them about it, better than order them to do so..

If not, they will be suffer in changing an attitude that follows them for years..

If they didn't get to change, argument will exist,

and the final solution,

the only way is to give up..

气死了！！！

都不明白，明明少时间接触！

明明少时间联络了，难得有得联络一下，

为什么还要耍脾气！？！？！？！

难道，就这么不想交谈吗？

是这样，早说嘛！我就再也不烦你啦！

ISH!!!!

跟我谈天就这样，跟他呢？？！！！？？？？

还不是很有耐心的谈？？？？？

我忍你很久了！你当你谁丫？

有事，闷的时候就扑过来！

讨厌！我真的很恨你！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

我就是原谅你才会变成现在这样！放纵！

我不会再忍让，你踏进一步，我会十倍奉还！

NAH!